A Step Backwards

We found out yesterday that the person responsible for what happened to Caitlyn took his own life. It was a shock to say the least. Apparently this was not the first time he had been a suspect and he had other issues going on in his life.
Caitlyn took the news hard. We once again had to reassure her that she could not blame herself. No one can be responsible for the actions of other people.
She is going through so many emotions. She feels sad, angry, and confused. She has such a kind and loving heart. She's the type of girl who when we are at the store and she sees a stuffed animal misplaced on a shelf by itself she will pick it up and move it back to where it belongs because she doesn't want it to be alone. She hates to see people eating by themselves. She wants so much to believe that there is good in people. I think we all want to believe that. It's such an endearing quality about her.
She is angry that now she doesn't get her justice. Now he will never pay for what he did. Some would argue that he got what he deserved. We however feel like we are in limbo. That it is unresolved. It is not the outcome we were hoping for and for helping us to heal. She did tell me that she is ready to go and talk to someone. I didn't want to push her until she was ready. I wanted it to be her decision. I am relieved now that she is ready and willing. I think it will help her tremendously. There is only so much I know to say to her without feeling like a broken record. I've never felt so helpless in my life. All we can do is continue to show her how much we love her and support her.